Several months ago I sat down in the pantry at work, wrote these 19 bullet points, in no particular order, on why I wanted to quit my job and go on an adventure.
1. See sunrise and sunset
2. Lookup the sky at night
3. Exercise. Tired of being fat.
4. Realize the value of money
5. Realize the value you get in a corporate
6. No liability
7. No commitment
8. Know my own state
9. Explore Mizoram and North East
10. Full time adventure
11. 14 years away from home
12. Embrace what Mizoram and North East has in terms of adventure and nature
13. Simple life
14. Too much coffee at work
15. Lead a normal 9-5 life ( I worked 1130 – 2030)
16. No in-depth product knowledge
17. Repetitive work
18. Lack of inspiration, motivation
19. Doing something new, different for once in life
20. Whatever I’ve written above are maybe made up or no big deal. I will never be able to fully explain and justify to the world but I am convinced deep down I knew very well I wanted to quit. Doing bare minimum and taking the money at the end of the month didn’t feel right to me any more.
I have been unemployed for 3 weeks now. The fear of no more salary was troubling at first but it went off in a few days. Benjamin Franklin said
They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety.
I guess I have decided to pick liberty.
I often compared the cubicle to compulsory study hour in the boarding. Whether you like it or not, you got to stay put. I sat in the cubicle for 8 years. Maybe I will have to return but for now I have had enough. Back there you learned it rained in town from Twitter. I was seated far away from the window and the real world.
I started late. I finished late. Reached home late. I forgot to lookup the sky at night. I forgot to appreciate full moon. I drank too much coffee at work, enough to gain some fat from coffee alone. My lifestyle was simply unhealthy for body and soul.
It could be the best, or the worst decision I’ve ever taken. I risked it because I don’t want to ask myself 10 years from now “Why didnt i do it?”